Emotional Suicide Note Left by Doctor Who Died at KNH Parking

  • Lydia Wahura, a 35-year-old doctor who died by suicide at the Kenyatta National Hospital (KNH) parking lot.
    Lydia Wahura, a 35-year-old doctor who died by suicide at the Kenyatta National Hospital (KNH) parking lot.
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  • The late Lydia Wahura, a 35-year-old doctor who was found dead on Saturday, June 12, in her car at the Kenyatta National Hospital, wrote a suicide note and sent to her brother before she died.

    Kilimani OCPD Muturi Mbogo told Kenyans.co.ke that Wahuru had sent an email to her brother, family members and close friends, detailing why she wanted to take her own life.

    "The post morterm was done and we have already ascertained the death was caused by chemicals. Some samples have also been taken for analysis to a government chemist to know the type of drugs that she administered in her body," Mbogo stated.

    Kenyatta National Hospital.
    Kenyatta National Hospital.
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    Part of an email Wahuru wrote reads; 

    “I am so so so so sorry but I don’t expect forgiveness.

    I am scared of dying but I am more scared of living...Life is not what I expected."

    Wahura was a post graduate medical student at the University of Nairobi College of Health Sciences.

    On Saturday, June 12, Wahuru arrived for her usual classes at around 9 am but left 30 minutes later and went to her vehicle.

    Hours later, the Head of Security at the School of Medicine, George Onyango found body lying on the back seat of the car.

    Wahura's body was taken to the Chiromo mortuary and a postmortem conducted on Tuesday, June 15.

    In a Facebook statement Wahura wrote in December 2020, she decried that many doctors lived in trauma and worked under deplorable conditions.

    "I don't think I'll ever be able to put into words how much losing patients I knew never needed to die has messed with my mental health. And almost all of us have such stories."

    She was reacting to the death of doctor Stephen Mogosu, a youthful medic serving in Machakos County under the Universal Health Coverage (UHC) pilot programme who succumbed to Covid-19.

    "I didn't know Dr Mogusu personally but his death feels even more obscene than other obscene deaths. He worked for months giving care he couldn't get."

    Stock image of the Kenyatta National Hospital.
    Stock image of the Kenyatta National Hospital.
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